Living in a room in my parents home, is a very challenging situation for me, yet financially, we still need to wait. I am yearning my own space, and find myself envious of those who are already 'there'.
Thoughts of 'If only we had a second income', or 'If only we didn't have so many children' plague my mind, and I daydream of all the niceties we could be enjoying already, if only we just...
One scripture that keeps chiseling its way into my indulgence, is found in Matt 6:19-21
'Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:
But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.'
As I pondered what this scripture means to me, I realised that my 'treasure' is in my husband and in my children. It is in raising up a righteous posterity to God, and finding joy in living with them now, and as an eternal family in the life to come. I realised that at the end of my life, if that is all I have, then I will feel rich, and will have no regrets.
As I held my Mercedes last night, whilst watching a movie together, a flash of light and understanding unexpectedly filled me. As I continue to 'treasure' God and my family, my treasure will increase. Or in other words, as I continue to love, and cherish, and find joy in my husband and children, and in service to God, my desire to be with them will grow and fill me, until at last, that is all I desire. Everything else will just be an added bonus.
